I've been doing a lot of research (both in the books/online and inside my own self) around the concept of simplifying my life, and the more I learn, the less I need.
Have you ever felt boxed in or cluttered?
I don't mean in the sense of physical clutter either; I'm talking about getting a glimpse of the reality that you'd accumulated a bunch of internal stuff that you hadn't made time to assess in order to shed or discard the parts that no longer fit who you'd become.
2011 has brought with it quite a bit of excitement, newness, and boundary pushing for Kris, our daughters, and me. We've been traveling more than I've ever done; I've been doing more public speaking than I've ever done; I've taken my workshops on the road, hitting up New York, heading to Jamaica next month, and planting some seeds in Chicago, DC, and Costa Rica for 2012. The work I've put in since 2007 have truly started to take root and spread out, and I remain grateful, curious, and motivated. I've taken my work from online to live, and wow--it was high time.
Exciting, right? Of course it is! But with this increased pace has also come the need to pay more attention to my life, my intentions, my motives, and of course, my schedule. I've upped my presence in my own life, "observing the underpinnings of its design", as Sarah Susanka said in her bestselling book, The Not So Big Life, and I've realized that I can do something about this feeling of clutter.
There's a school of thought that asserts a simple concept: Do less, notice more. That one sentence has been feeding my soul like a tall glass of pineapple/mango juice on ice, and I am drinking it in, honey! Indeed, I'm in that space now, and if I'm honest, it's the safest, most profound opportunity I've ever had to truly pay attention to the why and how of my actions.
This blog—my first foray into online exploration, has become a point of clutter. I had refused to let it go for three main reasons:
Reason No. 1: You. I didn't even know that an online community of women/men/parents existed, and in 2007 when I started this blog, I had no idea where it would take me. I've met quite a few of you in person, and even became friends with a handful of you. Letting go of this blog seemed akin to ditching you--our connection, our conversations--and so I hung on, barely engaging, but taking comfort in the fact that the blog was at least still here.
Reason No. 2: Nostalgia. This is the very same reason I have boxes of letters from my high school days, trophies from middle school track and field adventures, and other crap that's just taking up unnecessary physical space. I stayed here because the memories are sweet, but I'm now realizing that ownership of memories is a mindset, and not a blogging platform.
Reason No. 3: Money. Sponsored posts and advertisements on this blog, though not enough to say...buy me a car--have funded trips, gotten me invited to some pretty awesome events, and helped me feel rather official because I can point to it as proof of my been-blogging-forever-dude status.
My new schedule (and frankly, my new priorities) have helped me make a decision that should have been made a long time ago. I'm no longer posting on this blog. It's a hard decision, and even I myself am quite surprised (and a bit confused) about how emotional this is for me, but it is. But I've transitioned, and it makes no sense for me to keep this site on my radar, and not nurture our connection and conversations in any way.
Thank you for paying attention to my journey.
Thank you for sharing your journey with me.
Thank you for making blogging so worthwhile.
Thank you for offering your insight to my life.Thank you for reminding me how supportive and brilliant people can be.
I'm still writing online, and my focus is still about the way Execumamas flow. But it has evolved, just as I have, and it's time for me to embrace that.
You can join me if you'd like; I'd love it, actually.
Here's my other blog: Execumama Life
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Again, THANK YOU for your energy, insight, love, and light.
Akilah S. Richards
***I'll be taking the site down eventually, but It'll be here (static) for now, until I make time to sift through the posts to see what I want to keep.***